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I was having a discussion with a friend yesterday; about Christianity and when we gave our lives to the Lord Etc. You see the thing is I have been a “Christian” all my life, but it is only NOW in the past few months that I have had that “TOTAL CONVERSION” so to speak. What I mean by that is that I am now at that point where God takes precedence over EVERYTHING in my life. My friend said the same thing, he has been a Christian his whole life but he too had a time in his life where he had that same “TOTAL CONVERSION” which was a few years ago.


In my previous post I mentioned that I had come across certain areas in my life where I still wanted to have control and not hand over the reins to God, and that is true. Then I started to think to myself how I could claim to have had this TOTAL CONVERSION, if I didn’t surrender ALL of me to the Lord. My friends and other bloggers all made the same point that we will struggle with this till the day we die. In fact 1 friend told me that he discovers things every day that he needs to hand over to God.


So the more I think about it the more I realise that like my friend said there will be MANY more times like this in my life that I have not handed over the control to God. The main thing is that I am aware of it and know that God is working in me, because he is bringing these things to my attention, telling me “let me have that part of your life…”


Like my friend said in a year from now I am going to look back and I am going to see how I have grown. The thing is I am doing that now already. I am looking back only as far back as when I started this Blog, and I have Grown SO MUCH and learnt so much. It’s amazing. God has been with me every step of the way, guiding every step I took.  


Today I stand in amazement at how far I have come, I never once thought I would be able to let go of past hurts and experiences, but I have. I cannot remember how I coped without God, I can’t remember my life without him, I remember the big events in my life but small things seem so distant. The big things whether good or bad I see now that they were there for me for the purpose of making me stronger. Many times I have asked God “where were you when…..? Why did you let that happen…..? Etc. looking back God was there he always was. I chose to shut him out, but he remained by my side throughout my life and for that I am grateful.  So every experience in my life was a part of who I am today and made me the person I am today. Had I not been through all of that, would I be sitting here and looking back at how I have grown??? I don’t thinks so.


So when you think God has left your side, think again HE IS THERE, HE IS ALWAYS THERE!!!!


 Deuteronomy 31:6 – “Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”



Joshua 1:5 – No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life; as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you.



1 Chronicles 28:20 -And David said to his son Solomon, “Be strong and of good courage, and do it; do not fear nor be dismayed, for the Lord God-my God-will be with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you, until you have finished all the work for the service of the house of the Lord.


Let’s remember Jesus this Christmas

What is the real reason for Christmas –  The celebration of Christ Jesus ( The best Gift EVER)

Matthew 1:18-25 (The Message) – 18-19: The birth of Jesus took place like this, his mother Mary was engaged to be married to Joseph. Before they came to the marriage bed Joseph discovered she was pregnant. (It was by the Holy Spirit but he did not know that). Joseph chagrined but noble, determined to take care of things quietly so that Mary would not be disgraced.

20-23: While he was trying to figure a way out he had a dream. God’s Angel spoke in the dream: “Joseph son of David, don’t hesitate to get married. Mary’s pregnancy is spirit-conceived. God’s Holy Spirit has made her pregnant. She will Bring a son to birth, and when she does you Joseph, will name him Jesus – ‘God Saves’ – because he will save his people from their sins.” This would bring the embryonic sermon to full term.

Watch for this a virgin will get pregnant and bear a son:

They will call him Immanuel (Hebrew for “God is with us”)

24-25 Then Joseph woke up, he did exactly what God’s angel commanded in the dream, he married Mary, but he did not consummate the marriage until she had the baby. He named the baby Jesus.


The birth of this baby was not just any ordinary birth. It was the birth of Jesus, our saviour. Many people have forgotten him in this timeless tradition, lately it seems to be more about family gatherings, astonishing amounts of food, presents and the like. And YES I do this every year; I get excited like a child at Christmas time because it is such a wonderful day of the year.


This year is different for me though, while I am still excited and have been to do all my Christmas shopping and can’t wait to see the faces of my nieces and nephews when they open their presents that we got them.


A lot of people seem to have forgotten that Christmas is a celebration, of the birth of Jesus Christ, the best Christmas present ever given to us by God.


John 3:16 – For God so loved the world that he GAVE his only son that whosoever believes in him will not perish but have everlasting life.


THIS is what Christmas is all about, Jesus, and the fact that he was born so that one day he would be put to death in return for our sins, so that we may have that everlasting life.


So while we all get caught up in the festivities let’s not forget the Guest of Honour Jesus Christ. Make sure he is a part of your Christmas this year, for those of you with Children, lets tell them about the real reason for Christmas so that they can remember and one day in turn tell their children.


My mother always used to tell me “You bend a tree when its young” meaning if you want your child to grow up in a certain way, having manners, obedience, generosity etc. You need to teach them these values from a young age that seed needs to be planted into their lives at an early age. So if you want your children to know the real meaning and value of Christmas, teach them now while they are still young.


So let’s celebrate the gift we received. But don’t just leave the celebrations for Christmas day Jesus should be celebrated on a DAILY basis.


God Bless all and Lets remember History (HIStory) – Jesus’ story.

Baptism – The time is right


 The past few days this thought has been playing on my mind, baptism and the meaning there of, what to expect etc. Now being born into the catholic religion I was baptised as a baby, but growing up we never practiced the catholic ways so to speak, I was baptised again at the age of 17, that was a choice I made at that stage in my life and at the church I was at. I realise now that, back then when I made the decision to get baptized I did it “just because” the option was there and I decided to do it.

 Now for a few weeks now I have wanted to get baptised, I always thought that you could only get baptised once in your life, the reason for this is that when I made the choice to be baptised my family had asked me why I wanted to do it as I was baptised when I was a baby so what is the point of doing it again?

 I asked my friend what he thought on this topic and whether it was ok to get baptised more than once, his answer was YES, it is ok to be baptised more than once.

I then did some research and found the following scripture:

 Ephesians 4:4-5 – There is one body, and one Spirit, even as you are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism, One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.


When I read this my first thought was that what I had been told was right that we can only be baptised once in our life according to the bible. I then sent this scripture to my friend and asked him to interpret it and tell me how he understood the scripture

 He told me this:

 It does not say that you can only be baptised once, the scripture states that there is ONE BAPTISM, meaning that there is only ONE METHOD of baptism.

This then cleared up any confusion about the scripture that I had although I still wanted some sort of confirmation, I then found another website regarding the EXACT SAME Scripture and this is exactly what this piece says.

“The Bible emphatically states that there is “One Master – One Faith – ONE “BAPTISM” (Ephesians 4:5).  This should leave no doubts that the believer has but ONE WAY that Baptism can be administered.  Only this ONE Baptism could be truly acceptable to the Most High. All other ways are merely traditions of man and Messiah Himself said that such were ‘in vain.’  Baptism based on tradition and not on the Bible, is therefore administered -‘In vain’.

This for me was all the confirmation I had needed about the scripture in question.

My next point I want to make is exactly how you get baptised, when I was baptised as a baby I had water sprinkled on my forehead, however when I was baptised at the age of 17 I was fully submerged into the water,

I looked up the meaning of baptism and this is what I found: a primary verb; to whelm, i.e. cover wholly with a fluid


Let’s look at the Bible and what is said about baptism and the way it needs to be performed,

Matthew 28:19-20 –“ Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always even to the end of the age.”


Mark 16:15-16 – .And He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned.”


Acts 8:36-38 – Now as they went down the road, they came to some water. And the eunuch said, “See, here is water. What hinders me from being baptized?” Then Philip said, “If you believe with all your heart, you may.” And he answered and said, “I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.” So he commanded the chariot to stand still. And both Philip and the eunuch went down into the water, and he baptized him.”

So the first 2 verses I made reference to both say baptize and as I stated above the meaning of the word baptism means to cover wholly(entirely) with a fluid.

Then the last verse says that they WENT DOWN into the water, it doesn’t say that they went to a puddle.

So it is my understanding that the correct method is to be IMMERSED in the water.

While I still know very little about baptism now as I write this post I am doing research as I go along. So if anything I say is not correct please do correct me. You see I so desperately want to be baptised again I just feel that at the stage in my life that I am now, the time is right unlike the last time.

Acts 2:37-41 “Now when they heard this they were cut to the heart, and said to Peter and the rest of the apostles, ‘Brethren, what shall we do?’  And Peter said to them, ‘Repent, and be baptised every one of you … for the forgiveness of your sins; and you shall receive the Gift of the Holy Spirit … So those who accepted His Word were baptised”.

Now this verse for me says so much, it tells me that when you are baptised your sins are forgiven, why then do certain religions perform baptism on infants? I completely disagree with that as an infant cannot understand and does not know sin so therefore there is nothing to forgive.  It also says that when being baptised you receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. This confuses me somewhat; I have yet to fully understand the Magnitude of this gift and exactly WHAT it is. If anyone has a deeper understanding of this please leave a comment below. What is THE GIFT of the Holy Spirit, is it being able to speak in tongues, is it being able to understand it or is it many different things and each person receives a different gift.

I have made the decision to be baptised again, however this time around I need to be sure that the time is right and that I am doing it for the right reasons.

If anyone can shed some more light on the topic please feel free to do so. I have MINIMAL knowledge on this topic so I would really appreciate some feedback, I do not want to go into this and get baptised again and not know FULLY what to expect.

God Bless

Coincidence or God

Don’t overlook the small things,

I read 2 blogs last night that touched on the little things that God does for  us that we overlook or merely say it was a coincidence, well I used to always think it was a coincidence, but the other day I never thought of it as a coincidence. While this might really sound like a coincidence to the unbelievers and even to some believers, I think it’s one of those many little things that God has done to show us he is there.


Some of you might find this funny and honestly so do it so here goes, I am looking after this house while the owners are away, huge house and these people have the best of everything, even the STOVE… yes they have a really cool stove, also one that I have never used before, I am so used to all the old fashioned stoves with the nobs that you turn, but this one did not have any nobs, you had to touch it to put it on etc., so I decided to cook dinner and had chopped onions had the pot on the stove with oil and went to put it on… only I could not get it to switch on, I struggled for almost half an hour to get the stove to work, when suddenly this little thought popped into my head “ HELLO IM HERE WHY DON’T YOU ASK ME FOR HELP” So I did I said a little prayer and asked God to help me figure out the stove, and immediately the stove started working, and it made me think, normally I would have overlooked that but this time I didn’t, I saw that as what it was a little reminder from God that he is real and he is here…


Another instance is last week, I had been reading the bible, and for the past few weeks I have been up really late reading and up very early so I decided I would take a little nap I said to myself just for an hour or so, so that I could continue reading his word and in turn strengthen my relationship, but just in case I fell asleep and didn’t wake up I prayed and asked the Lord to wake me up in exactly one hour it was still early I remember checking my time and it was 6:28pm when I went to lie down, at 7:30 pm I woke up, then I laid there for a minute or 2 and decided I was still feeling tired and would just lay there for a while, that did not happen, the minute I started to doze off it was like someone screamed in my ear WAKE UP, now if that is not proof enough that God listens and answers prayers then I don’t know, so don’t always look for the big things to confirm the existence of God, it is the small things that you overlook that confirms it.


Romans 8:28 – “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” – While this does not say anything about coincidence does it not give you that indication that those little things aren’t just mere Coincidence?


I found this on the net, now you tell me does this story not explain everything I have just been trying to say??


There was a man sitting on the roof of his house to avoid the rising floodwaters. A boat passes by, and the navigator says “We’re here to help! Grab hold of the rope!”


The man says “No, thanks. God will save me.”


An hour later, a helicopter flies over the house. The pilot says “I’m going to let down the ladder! Climb aboard!”


The man says “No thanks. God will save me.”


Two hours later, the man ends up in heaven. He says “God, I believed in You! How come you didn’t save me?”


God said, “I sent you a boat and a helicopter. What more do you want?”



I never quite knew what to call those “little” occurrences or coincidences but the one blog I read yesterday she had called it a GOD WINK, which is quite a nice term for it, what do you call them? I would like to know what others call it.

Christians dealing with Anger

I have seen this scripture before but never have I looked at it and applied it to my own life. I am ashamed to say but today this scripture applies to me.


 A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult (Proverbs 12:16). 


I had an argument with a co worker today, he said something that made me angry, when I get angry I either shake like a leaf or I start to cry, today was both. I got mad and snapped back at this person. Normally this would not bother me; I mean I have had arguments before with many people. We both end up saying things and eventually we get over it at some point or another. Today was different though, it bothered me so much that it was all I could think about all the way home, when I got home the first thing I did was went down on my knees by my bed like we used to do when we were kids and prayed. I mean literally went on my knees, I prayed for forgiveness and letting myself get so angry when all this time I have been working towards the Goal, and that is to become what God wants me to be, I am certain that the person that retaliated today is not the person that God intended me to be.


Obviously I cannot take anything back, I have apologised but to try and fix this I need to know what the bible says about it, I am aware that there are many scriptures related to anger, I just never took the time to find out what they were, so let’s look at it together


Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing (Proverbs 12:18)


I know that some if not all of y words towards my colleague were reckless, why? Because I never took a minute to think about what I was about to say I just retaliated immediately. I do that often it is something I need to work on, not thinking before I speak. While the things he said to me were hurtful I am almost certain the things I said to him were just as hurtful, I don’t know what his reason was but what was mine, what reason did I have to go off the way I did, what is my excuse?…. THERE IS NO EXCUSE I’m afraid.


A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger (Proverbs 15:1)


Instead of saying something like “sorry you feel that way” I fought back. All my life that’s has been my coping mechanism, is to fight back, to retaliate. It clearly is the completely wrong way in which to handle the situation, but it was the only way I knew how, and while I now know better I still struggle to control what comes out my mouth and the reactions I may give.


A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger (Proverbs 15:1)


This Scripture is one that should be locked away somewhere in your memory, to be able to refer back to it in times like this when you feel anger, I think if I have read this scripture 5 times in my entire life it is a lot, had I known this scripture better and kept it in my memory ,maybe today would have ended differently


It is to a man’s honour to avoid strife, but every fool is quick to quarrel (Proverbs 20:3)


I should have been big enough to avoid this confrontation, but instead I fought back instantly.


You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, “Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.” But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment … first go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift (Matthew 5:21-24)


If I want to follow in the footsteps of Jesus, I HAVE to learn to control my anger, and I need to learn to forgive for without that I am headed nowhere.


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs (1 Corinthians 13:4-5)


This one is another scripture that I feel should be memorised, and referred to in times of need.


Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you (Ephesians 4:29-32).


So here is what I plan to do, every day I will read the above scripture, and while I am only human, and might still falter, I have at least acknowledged the error in my ways, that is the first step. I prayed and asked God to help me, because this is something that I cannot do in my own strength. I have every faith that with time, I will with God’s help learn to control this and hopefully stop doing it all together



I found this poem on the internet and for me it pretty much sums up the effect of anger


Emotional Explosions…


Anger, a spark, within all of us.

There, anger is lurking, waiting to

Ignite the dynamite that will

Cause an explosion of words,

And actions, that cannot be taken back.


Anger, is the roadblock, to anything

And everything, worthwhile in life.


Anger, seemingly an involuntary reaction,

to rejection of thought or action.


Anger, an interpretation, of unacceptable behaviour.


Anger, almost always followed by regret.


Anger, an emotion. Whose children are,

Anxiety, fear, frustration, animosity, passion,

outrage and a thousands of other, emotionally

Affecting articulations.


Anger, the replacement of reason.


What is the enemy of anger? The

Enemy of anger, is, patience, understanding

And love.


Anger, the emotion, the world would be

Far better off, without.


Anger and bitterness toward anything or anyone, is so destructive for our lives and we need to do everything we can to avoid it. I would love to hear from all of you how you deal with anger. Always good when you are trying to get another person’s perspective on situations like these