I don’t know about you but I sometimes struggle with negative thoughts, and ever since re-dedicating my life to the Lord again, those thoughts seem to me more frequent than usual. I read a book a few days ago that this is the devil that keeps replacing your positive thoughts with negative ones, trying to make you stumble, trying to make you give in and go back to your sinful life.
Like for instance, I feel God is leading me in the direction of fasting, it has been on my mind quite a lot lately but every time I think of it I also have this thought pop in my mind saying you will never last, don’t even bother starting because you do not have the will power to follow through to the end, if that is the case then why has God placed it in my heart to fast.
The bible says we need to take our thoughts captive, so for me this means that the minute you have a negative thought you need to discard that thought and replace it with a positive one and discipline yourself with this do it over and over again until the negative thought is no longer there
2 Corinthians 10:4-5 – For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.
I have been speaking to a friend who recently did the Daniel Fast, if I am not mistaken he did it for 21 days, which is quite a long time, he said it is very difficult but that this is the time that I must stand strong and not GIVE UP, he suggested that seen as this is the first time in my life that I will be fasting that I do not do it for a long period of time, so I am going to start off with just 1 week.
This will definitely be a true test of how dedicated I am to strengthen my relationship with God. That is my goal so that I can grow more in my walk with the Lord, I am so hungry for more it seems like I can’t get enough.
This is why I am being bombarded with negative thoughts, because I want to be closer to God. It’s not just with the fasting it is really with a lot of aspects in my life, I really struggle with my thought life, to get a handle on it is NOT easy, I am trying though. I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS, with every passing day the negative thoughts don’t become easier or being a Christian does not become easier, the difference is that as we mature in Christ with every day we become stronger to fight the battles against the Devil.
Philippians 4:8-9 – Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honourable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
Has anyone read the book A battlefield of the mind by Joyce Meyer? My friend told me to get it as he had the same problems with his negative thoughts, and said I should get it… I have looked all over for this book and cannot find it anywhere. I will continue to look for it though sure eventually I will find it.
1 Peter 5:8 – Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.
I find that reading books have also helped my along this Journey so here are a list of some of the books I have read they are all really good.
A Divine Revelation of Hell – Mary K Baxter
A Divine Revelation of Heaven – Mary K Baxter
Walking in your own shoes – Robert A Schuller
A Case for the Real Jesus – Lee Strobel
He came to set the captives free – Rebecca Brown
Prepare for War – Rebecca Brown
From Bondage to blessing – Dee Alei
Not all of these books relate to dealing with negative thoughts however they are all books that have helped me along the way.
I read an article a few minutes ago, about an Iranian Pastor who has been in prison for standing his ground in what he believes, this post has rattled me like you cannot believe, I sit here and it feels like my heart has been ripped out as if it were someone in my family that this has happened to. I tried to reblog the post but for some reason it did not work, in this post was a link I went to read the story of this Pastor, and have just copied and pasted it as it was stated there. I will also provide you with a few more links of other sites regarding to this Pastor.
He has been sentenced to death and yet he still stands strong for Jesus, how many of us have been put in such a situation where you either renounce your faith and belief in the Almighty God or you die, not many I am sure, it ust be very hard for him, but I admire his commitment. I pray that God make a way for him and that he be released and to continue spreading the word of God.
Full Story of Youcef Nadarkhani
We first reported the arrest of pastor Youcef in the fall of 2009. If you’d like to assist us in our work for the persecuted church you can do so here.
Here is a brief history of Youcef Nadarkhani, leading up to his current situation.
**UPDATE** – Youcef is still under the death sentence for apostasy. In June the Supreme Court upheld the death sentence as it is based upon fatwas of the Supreme Leader. On September 25-28 hearings were held by the Gilan provincial court to determine if he was a Muslim. On the 26th they determined that Youcef was a Muslim because his parents were when he was born. All witnesses stated that he did not practice Islam, yet the court inexplicably determined he was a national apostate. At each hearing he was commanded to recant and each time he refused. Two hearings were held after the verbal determination was made by the judges. There is a serious concern that he could be executed at any time because according to Sharia Law you are to be given three days to recant if you are an apostate. He was commanded to recant three straight days after the judges made their determination. The attorney’s for pastor Youcef are stating that, by law, the written verdict must be delivered within seven days. To this date the written verdict for Pastor Youcef has not been delivered. The court has promised another delay for the express purpose to give him more time to recant and return to Islam.
Youcef is 34 years old and is from Rasht, in the Gilan province of Iran. For the past ten years he has been a pastor in a network of house churches. He was previously imprisoned in December of 2006, the charges being apostasy (leaving Islam for Christianity) and evangelism (spreading the message of the Gospel of Jesus Christ), but was released two weeks later.
He is married and has two sons, Daniel age 9 and Yoel age 7. They were attending a local school when the government decided that all children should be taught about Islam, including those from Christian families. Youcef went to the school and protested this based on the Iranian constitution, which allows for freedom to practice religion. As a result, the secret police called him before the political tribunal in Rasht, Iran on October 12, 2009. At that time he was arrested, charged for protesting, and has been in prison in Lakan (which is seven miles south of Rasht) ever since. Later the charges changed to apostasy and evangelism to Muslims.
Youcef is imprisoned in the Lakan prison, a city close to Rasht. Over the time of his incarceration he has mostly has had access to an attorney, and has been allowed visits from his wife, children, and friends. However, for the first month in prison and for several months around the time of his trial he was in solitary confinement. They have used various methods to try to convert him back to Islam, including giving him pills, apparently in an attempt to claim that he was insane.
Because Youcef’s faith remained strong, they decided to arrest his wife in order to place more pressure on him. On June 18th, 2010 Fatemah Pasindedih was arrested, charged with apostasy and placed in prison in Lakan. During this time their boys went to live with a relative. Both Youcef and his wife Fatemah were threatened by authorities that their children would be taken away and given to a Muslim family. Youcef was not swayed to turn back to Islam, so his wife was put on trial without an attorney, and sentenced to life in prison. An attorney was later hired and the sentence appealed. The sentence and conviction were overturned and she was released.
On September 21 and 22, 2010, Youcef was put on trial, and verbally given the sentence of death. A written verdict was delayed and then delivered, on November 13, 2010, by the 1st Court of the Revolutionary Tribunal. He is to be executed by hanging for the crime of apostasy. Twenty days are allowed to appeal the sentence with the Supreme Court of Iran.
On December 5, 2010 the verdict was appealed to the Supreme Court, but on June 28, 2011 we learned that the Supreme Court reached a decision. The third chamber of the Supreme Court in Qom upheld his conviction for apostasy and the death sentence. They have commanded the local court to re-examine whether or not he was a practicing Muslim from ages 15 to 19. If it is determined he was a practicing Muslim he will be given another chance to recant and then he will be executed.
The re-examination of his case was held September 25th through 28th. From the very beginning it was demanded he recant. Even before the case was heard or the trial completed. During one hearing he was told to recant and he responded, “You ask me to recant. Recant means to return. What do you wish me to return to? The blasphemy that I was in before Christ?” The judges responded, “To the religion of your ancestors, Islam.” Youcef replied, “I cannot.” The Muslim attorney that is working to help him had this to say about his client, ”Physically he looks weak but emotionally his belief in Christ is keeping his spirits high.”
Based upon Islamic Sharia Law an apostate is to be given three days to recant. There is a very real concern that he could be executed at any time. The attorney’s suggest that first a written verdict will be delivered, by law within a week, and secondly they will have the opportunity to appeal the verdict.
Nonetheless, there are no assurances that he will not be executed. It could happen at any time. This is the way that the Iranian government operates with executions. They do not give advance notice and it is done in secret.
We cannot wait another moment, we have to contact our elected officials. We need to fast and pray for his deliverance. Contact the international news media, international human rights organizations and the government. Go to http://presenttruthmn.com/persecuted-christians/ to get more details on how to contact someone.
My heart goes out to this man, if I could get on a plane right now and help him I would but I cannot, there is nothing in this world that is more powerful than PRAYER, Please friends lets all pray for this man.
Up until a few hours ago, I had no clue what I would write about today, but God has a way of revealing to you exactly what is needed and when, I have decided that every thought that makes me feel at peace and good is from God, so I will obey him and write this post.
Today I will write about Christians dealing with conflict and my friend and colleague, for the sake of anonymity I will call him Frikkie (A little humour for you my friendJ)
I have mentioned Frikkie in a few blog posts; he was one of the people that have been instrumental in me giving my life back to the Lord.
Before I go any further I would like to provide you with some scriptures so that you can have a better understanding of this post.
Matthew 18:15 – “If your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault, between you and him alone. If he listens to you, you have gained your brother.
Colossians 3:13 – Bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.
My friend is dealing with conflict in the work place, he is victimised by one person and unfortunately this person is in a higher management position, had I been in his shoes, I do not think that I would have been as calm and collected as he is. I take my hat off to him and I would often wonder how he actually manages to stay so calm. You see Frikkie is a born again Christian and he has Jesus on his side.
I look at him and have the utmost respect for him, as he is a true example of what it really is to be a Christian and to be more Christ like in his everyday life.
I felt the need to pray for him last night, and at that time I was not sure what for, I thought perhaps it was for his safety but it wasn’t. I sat here and thought to myself, about the way he is being treated, if you knew him as a person you would agree with me that how he has been treated is WRONG. Plain and simple, he goes out of his way to help others, he never has a bad word to say about anyone, he does not swear, does not speak to people disrespectfully even though this is how he is treated on a daily basis. He has respect for anyone and everyone that crosses his path, and makes people feel good. Everyone in our office considers him to be one of the friendliest people around, and yet there is that one person that does everything to make his life a living hell, now that is where a light suddenly came on in my head, or should I rather say at that time God revealed something to me.
He reminded me of something I said on one of my previous posts, that being a Christian is NOT easy, in fact it is a very tough road to travel, because once you surrender to Jesus, satan will do EVERYTHING he can to make you stumble and fall, in your walk with Jesus. So in this case where my friend is concerned Satan is using this one person to attack him, so it’s not the actual person, the driving force here is satan, once we are able to realise that the battle if halfway won, because then we can call in the BIG SHOT, the one who is more powerful than satan can EVER dream of being, we need to let God take the wheel in our fight with satan, once we allow him to direct our next step there is no way that satan will have victory.
Being a Christian is a true test of one’s faith in Jesus, because it is when you become a Christian that the battle begins. This is where the most important decision lies in our lives. Who do we trust and rely on?
I am still busy reading the book walking in your own shoes by Robert H. Schuller, and I am currently on the last chapter but last night he made a very good analogy on faith and trusting the Lord in times of need.
He used a blind girl as an example; she is standing on a windowsill of a top floor of a burning building, she cannot see a thing, she hears the fire fighters telling to her that she can jump there is a net that will catch her, and yet she does not jump, she is paralyzed with fear at the thought of Jumping because she cannot see the net. She struggles to trust the fire fighters enough to save her life, but then suddenly her father speaks to her and tells her to Jump that he is there and everything will be ok. Then suddenly her whole perspective changes and she jumps, although she cannot see the net, why did she jump? … Because she had faith in her father and trusted him enough to believe him when he said everything will be ok.
Now we can relate to that blind girl as us not being sure of the safety net of Jesus, but then he speaks to us through his word and says trust me it will be ok you will be safe.
I will go back to my point, that when you become a Christian, you begin a battle, a battle with satan, we are blind, there is a safety net called Jesus, and he is telling us that it is ok to Jump he is there.
1 Samuel 17:47 – Then all this assembly shall know that the Lord does not save with sword and spear; for the battle is the Lord’s, and He will give you into our hands.
2 Timothy 2:1-4 – You therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier.
2 Corinthians 10:3-5 – For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ.
Ephesians 6:10-20 – Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armour of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand pin the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints and for me, that utterance may be given to me, that I may open my mouth boldly to make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in it I may speak boldly, as I ought to.
I thank the lord for giving me the insight to do this post today and I dedicate this post and every other post to my Almighty God, in him I have found my strength to go into battle for him.
I also want to dedicate this to my friend, you are stronger than what you think, you are a mighty warrior for Jesus, and I have the utmost respect for you in the way you have handled this situation, this world needs more people like you in it. I pray that this battle you are now fighting will be one that will make you stronger and more determined to fight for what is right. I know God will be with you every step of the way; he will carry you and give you the tools you need to overcome this obstacle. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. May God Bless you abundantly, in your Journey with him.
For anyone reading this all I ask of you is that you please lift my friend up in prayer. He has some very difficult choices to make and he might not see what’s on the other side of the mountain but with prayer and faith he will know what the right move will be as God will reveal it to him.
May you all have a blessed day.
Well I am exactly 3 chapters away from finishing this book walking in your own shoes that I started reading on Friday evening, I knew that when I started reading it I would enjoy it immensely. So let me tell you a little bit about Chapter 8, called “A Divine GPS, he starts of with actual GPS technology to get you from point A to B, and how you can track your vehicle from you home pc, or even track your cell phone. While I was reading this chapter, the words “God’s Positioning System” came to my mind, and thought what an awesome topic for a blog, now I had to figure out the body of my blog, well I put that thought aside and continued to read, and to my surprise the last section of this chapter was called G.P.S – God’s Positioning system. I must say I was not surprised I was actually wondering why he had not termed it that way right from the beginning. Nevertheless I saw that as confirmation that my next topic would be exactly that about God’s positioning system. So I read the chapter and I am only making use of the topic, the book is now closed and I am going to give you my perspective.
Now while I have made use of a GPS before to get me from one place to the next it still is somewhat unreliable, telling you to turn left, then when you look left there is a huge wall, nowhere to turn, I find that Satan does that to try and throw you off course from God’s Love and all His blessings and promises, he tells you follow me come this way and go that way do this and do that, you may not see that huge wall in front of you but believe me it is there, satan will never lead you in the direction that God wants you to go, he will take you down dangerous alleys, and forbidden paths.
So STOP, relying on your own strength because you are sure to get lost, trust me I know. Start using your Divine GPS; let’s see what the bible has to say about the direction of God.
Psalm 37:23 – “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord.” What does this tell you? The way I see this verse is every step you take had been planned ahead by God, if you are not on the path he chose for you it is because you have been thrown off course by satan, do not let him do this to you.
Proverbs 16:9 – “A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” – Same thing here it is evident, the bible says that God directs your steps, God will show you the way if you just allow him to do so.
Here are a few more verses that prove just that, that God will guide you every step of the way
Proverbs 3:5 – “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”
Isaiah 48:17 – Thus says the Lord, Your Redeemer, The Holy One of Israel: “I am the Lord your God, who teaches you to profit, who leads you by the way you should go.”
Psalm 32:8 – “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.”
Psalm 48:14 – “For this is God, our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death.”
Isaiah 58:11 – “The Lord will guide you continually …”
How many ore scriptures do you need to read before you believe that the best GPS is not the ones you use in your car instead of a map book, it’s the DIVINE GPS – GOD’S POSITIONING SYSTEM
Think of a big rugby game, for whatever reason you cannot watch it live, maybe you are at work or you have a prior engagement, so what do you do? you tape it, so that you can watch it later, then someone tells you the score, even though you didn’t want to know because you want to experience the game as it should be, so now you know, you and a few other friends who have not seen the game sit down to watch, your team that you support is on a BIG LOSING streak and need a miracle to win this, while all your friends are sitting on the edge of the seat having lost all hope of their team winning, you are there relaxed and calm, you look at them and tell them don’t worry everything will BE OK, naturally they think you have completely lost your mind, I mean really look at the score, they ask you how you know it will be ok, and you tell the because I know the outcome, I know the score…
PEOPLE that is exactly it, EVERYTHING will be ok. WHY? Because GOD knows the outcome, he knows the score, he knew the path you would be on before you were on it, he mapped out your life before you were born, he has the score of your life already, he is telling you it will be ok I have PLANNED for you long ago, just trust in me and you will BE OK.
So I will end with this, God has positioned you exactly where he wants you to be, think of yourself as moulding clay, try to find the good in the bad, think of every situation as you being moulded and shaped into the person you were meant to be, the person ordained by God himself to do great things, for him. That is the way I will see my life and circumstances, I am being used by him and shaped by him to do his work, he had a plan for me and he had a plan for you, for all of us, all we have to do is trust in him.
As most of you know, to be a true child of God, that satan’s attacks will become more frequent and stronger by the day, and in order for us to be protected from that we need to study his word and equip ourselves with the Armour of God.
Ok so I have read any books on people that have given their lives to the Lord, and have written about their experiences, and how they suffered many attacks from the devil. To be very honest, I read those books being a bit wary on the validity as I was still a very young Christian and my Journey with the Lord had only just begun.
I started blogging approximately a month ago, and with every post I feel l have learnt so much about the Lord and so much about myself that I am in fact much stronger than I think. Over the past couple of weeks, I have had this growing desire to go out and tell people about the Lord, something that I found previously very difficult to do. I have also felt this overwhelming sense of Love in my life, no Love I have ever experienced has quite matched the Love I have been feeling, so much so that it is just way too much Love for me to handle and therefore the desire to get it out there so that others can also experience this Love that I am currently feeling.
However along with this amazing Love that I feel, I have had this growing feeling of being attacked. Although nothing specific had happened I felt like I was under attack and it bothered me. I could not quite put my finger on why I felt this way; the one good thing about all of this was that the feeling of being loved so much overpowered the feeling of being attacked.
Something happened to me last night, and while most people might see this as pure coincidence, but deep down I feel like it was an attack. Why I say that? Well let me explain, I feel that with EVERY passing day my relationship with the Lord is getting stronger and stronger. In fact yesterday I woke up and felt like my whole life had changed I felt something that I had never experienced before and that was that Jesus was there he is living in me and through me. This is WHY I felt like what happened last night was an attack and not mere coincidence. So let me tell you what happened and you can tell me what you think.
As mentioned before I have felt this feeling of being attacked for a few days now, but yesterday I felt slightly uneasy when I left to go home, that feeling of uneasiness though was clouded with the fact a colleague whom I consider to be a very good friend had decided to bless me with a new Bible, I was absolutely floored when he gave it to me. So that uneasy feeling went away for a short while. Anyway I was on my way home and the lady in the lane next to me had suddenly swerved out in front of me, if I had not swerved out of the way there would have been an accident, and although it would not have been a very serious one I would have been hurt, about I had gone to fetch my mother and we were on our way to my brother for dinner, and it was approximately 20 minutes after this that the next thing had happened, this time it was from the other side this car had decided to come into the lane that I was in, I was practically right next to him so there is no way he did not see me once again I had to swerve out of the way, had I not done that we would have been in an accident and would have been hurt, also here I do not think we would have been badly hurt, but hurt nonetheless. Then while at my brother I decided to go to the shop, on the way back I saw a car that was quite a distance away so I never thought anything of it because it was far, within seconds this car was approaching me from behind I do not know how fast he was driving but it was clear that he was not slowing down, I swerved into the other lane to get out of the way, as I swerved my car out of the way this man had sped past, had I not looked in my rear view mirror he would have hit me and at the speed he was going someone would have died I just know that, there is no way that there could be a collision at that speed and no one gets hurt.
Unfortunately I suffer from road rage, which is something I am slowly but surely learning how to deal with, however when he had sped past me and I realised that we could all have been dead had I not moved out of the way angered me, I chased after him, but when he skipped a red robot and almost caused another accident I decided to drop it as I had just stooped to his level and had put my life as well as the lives of my passengers and other drivers on the road at risk. I felt such a strong sense of uneasiness, and I really felt that I was under attack. I now have this feeling of someone watching me and saying I didn’t get you last night but I will get you, and at the same time I am not scared when normally I would have been, I am not scared because I have the protection of God, and it says in the bible that no weapons formed against me will prosper
Isaiah 54:17: “No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; And every tongue that accuses you in judgment you will condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their vindication is from Me,” declares the LORD.
So satan, ONCE AGAIN… you can try and attack me as much as you like but your best just AINT GOOD ENOUGH… so why waste your time
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of His might. 11 Put on the full armour of God, that you may be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore, take up the full armour of God, that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.
14 Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming missiles of the evil one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints, 19 and pray on my behalf, that utterance may be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in proclaiming it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.
I would love some feedback on this from anyone who reads it as this is something I need to learn how to deal with.
Well well well…. you certainly are a persistent little bugger aren’t you, you are right there waiting for me to fall waiting for me to give into my weaknesses, waiting just waiting… not so patiently might I add. Today I feel the pressure more than most, nothing in particular has happened that makes today worse than the others, in fact I do not know why today is so hard, but it is. I am sure that makes you happy too, so happy because soon you will succeed, you will be victorious over me … THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK.
Yes today is hard, VERY HARD, I have so many things going through my mind, how I am going to pay all my bills at the end of the month, how I am going to manage to get to work every day, how the problems seem to just be getting bigger. Right now I feel like screaming as it seems there is no way out, I AM ONLY HUMAN after all.
Let me just tell you one thing, you can wait and wait and wait, because this time around I REFUSE to let go of the Lord, I refuse to forget HIS promise and his LOVE, I am nothing without HIM. My life would be senseless, I knew it would not be easy; in fact the attacks from you would increase and just get worse. On my own I would have fallen, I am so grateful that I am NOT ON MY OWN. That one fact must annoy you to no end. Well guess what that will not change, I will have the Lord by my side ALL THE TIME, I know your attacks will not stop, I would be fooling myself if I thought for one single minute that would happen. I am just GLAD, GLAD that I am not alone, YES SATAN, I am holding God’s hand every step of the way.
So here is my message to you… BACK OFF AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE, GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM, TO YOUR WORLD OF EVIL, JUST DON’T EXPECT ME TO COME WITH YOU THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN SO GIVE UP ON ME BECAUSE YOU ARE WASTING YOUR TIME. WHILE YOU AT IT GET YOUR CLAWS OUT OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND ALL THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT, BECAUSE WITH GOD ON OUR SIDE WE WILL BEAT YOU…. GO AHEAD… GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT. JUST REMEMBER YOUR BEST SHOT IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
The God of my rock; in him will I trust: he is my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower, and my refuge, my saviour; thou saved me from violence. I will call on the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. 2 Samuel 22:3-4
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me. Psalm 138:7
What am I doing or not doing that makes me go back and forth the way I do. Whoever said being a Christian was easy is VERY mistaken. It is by FAR the most difficult thing I have ever done was being a Christian. WHY you say??
Well Satan is there by your side all the time just like Jesus, however he is there trying to tempt you, tells you that you are not good enough etc. He is there standing by to watch you fall, and believe me when you do he is the first there to be the wolf with sheep’s clothing and he knows it is easy. Being a Christian you face so many obstacles once you give your life to the Lord, Satan will go into overdrive the temptation will double you will be ridiculed and judged. All you can do is be strong, have faith and pray. Ask the Lord to be with you all the time to protect you from the evils of this world.
So here is how I see it and this comes from my OWN personal experience, for I too have gone back and forth from serving the Lord to living my life the way choose to live it.
When I first became a Christian I was on fire for the Lord, my life was great and things were going well, then eventually I would go back to my old ways and slowly but surely I forgot about the Lord I stopped going to church, stopped reading my bible, one other VERY important thing I noticed is that my life FELL apart. Things just started going wrong. I would often sit and asked myself what I did to deserve all this, to deserve the struggle, heartache and pain. The answer is clear it’s not what I did it’s what I didn’t do that caused my life to fall apart. It was because I did not invite Jesus back into my life, He was not there to give me peace and to make me feel loved like I did when He was part of my life.
Which brings me back to my question why is it so easy to backslide. Yes when you give into satan’s temptations things go great for a while until he has succeeded 100% in getting rid of the Lord in your life, then he does not care that’s when things go wrong, I mean he has you now, why does he still need to tempt you with money and all your hearts desires? I remember what my life was like without the Lord and what it was like with Him, and although being a Christian is by FAR harder than not being a Christian, it is also by far better, being a Christian I feel at peace with myself, I feel loved and happy, I feel safe, I feel like I can do anything and conquer anything. I feel inspired, I am passionate about the Lord, and quite honestly I don’t care what anyone thinks about me, you can think I am crazy and I have lost my mind but there are 2 roads I can take, on my left is the narrow and extremely bumpy and on the other the wide and smooth, the left being the life with the Lord, and the other being the life with satan, I would rather choose the narrow and bumpy, because I know that once satan has his claws in you the wide and smooth road that you once saw will become even more narrow and bumpy, and dangerous, where as what started as the narrow and bumpy will turn into the wide and smooth which is the abundance of Jesus and all His blessings.
All this boils down to one thing, in life you have ONE very important choice, and that is whether you choose to LIVE OR DIE…. Jesus provides you with eternal life, in heaven with Him. So what choice do you make? GOD or spiritual and eventually physical death? You cannot have both. You cannot have GOD in your life and at the same time live a life of sin, if you accept Jesus you have to accept Him 100%. I am not saying I am perfect and living a sin free life but I am trying VERY hard to live the life He wants me to live.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this. Comments welcome…