Well for those of you that have read my previous post… YES I know it’s a long one. I made the promise to myself that the whole month I am spending looking after this house while the owners are away I will not watch any TV, NOT EVEN ONE SHOW… well I didn’t really make the promise to myself I made the promise to God, that I would take advantage of the month that I am here, to completely Immerse myself in his word, whether it be by reading the bible, reading Christian books, or blogging about Jesus, either way I am spending the time focusing on him. The last time I watched TV was on Wednesday the 7th of December, while the Thursday I forgot my promise and was about to switch the TV on, this little voice said NO remember your promise… well let me tell you something, under normal circumstances I would have been going crazy, not being able to chill in front of the TV to watch a show or 2.
Its not like that though, I am loving spending some alone time, to learn more and more about God, it really is so AMAZING that, everyday there is something new and something even greater, to learn about him. It is like I can’t get home quick enough to just be with God, its almost like a love affair so to speak, except its not secret. I want everyone to know that I am in a loving relationship with Jesus, and that if they just gave him the chance he so RIGHTLY DESERVES they could have that exact same relationship, each and every one of us have been ordained to do something magnificent for The Lord, and that is VERY EXCITING…
Well so far so good on my NO TV PROMISE, I will be sure to keep you all posted.
One more thing before I go I feel the need to list some of the blogs I follow, all these blogs below are an amazing source of inspiration, and some are of personal testimony, I great source of scripture and insight into the Bible and Jesus himself, so do yourself a favour and go and have a look why don’t you.
So here they are:
Lions Lead – This blog is truly inspirational, I have had the pleasure of meeting Lourens de Lange, who is the man behind Lions Lead, I have read some of his blogs before this blog even began, and loved it so much that I sent it to all my friends to read, and it ended up being posted on a very well known South African Christian magazines website, I truly believe that God has the most awesome plan for his life and I am almost certain that part of the plan is for him to write, think about it why would God bless him with such an AMAZING talent if it was not his intention to make use of it. So do yourself a favour go and take a look at this blog I PROMISE YOU that you will be blessed, just like I was.
All Things Beautiful – While I have never met this lady, I have been inspired by every single one of her posts, I found something from each one that I could apply to my OWN life which has helped me tremendously, she also happens to be the sister of the Lourens who writes the blog above, so if his character is anything to go by and his relationship with the Lord is anything to go by then I am sure she is just as Great. Each and every one of her blogs if God Focused which is fantastic, and you are bound to find some inspiration there too.
Allowing Christ to change y life – Well what can I say about this one, I find that every one of her blogs to be inspirational, she has had some hard issues in life that needed dealing with and she has come out a strong passion filled warrior for Jesus, more than that I also have never met her, in fact I don’t even know her name( I am sure if I search through her blog I will find it) I feel this connection to her, I don’t know what it is but it’s there, also very insightful inspirational
Well these 3 blogs are the 3 blogs that I felt the need to mention again, I am speaking from experience here that if you feel somewhat confused, down, or just needing answers you will find something to inspire you in one of these blogs.
I have one small request, if anyone reading this will re-blog it, not because I want people to read my blog, but because I want people to be as inspired by Jesus as I am.
Have a blessed weekend fellow Bloggers
Ok So you know when you were a kid there were certain food items that you did not like but now that you are all grown up you find that some of those things that you previously disliked you have now acquired a taste for, or vice versa, I am sure there are many of you whom have experienced this, like when I was younger I used to love Olives…. YES olives, while although I still like them now I won’t go out of my way, or when I was younger I used to hate prawns but I have recently started eating them and I quite like it.
Well that is the only way that I can explain the way I feel, I used to be one of those people that would go clubbing often and come home when the sun comes up, I used to drink and get drunk with my friends, I would knock down shooter after shooter, spend 1000’s on drinks, I remember 1 evening I had gone out with a friend and between the 2 of us we had spent 3000 on drinks.
I would start planning the weekend’s parties on Monday already, I lived for the next gathering of friends whether it be clubbing or just being at their house, one thing that was guaranteed was alcohol… at that stage of my life all of my friends enjoyed a drink, and today most of them still do.
Me however I have had a “Change of Heart Change of Mind” the last time I took alcohol to a new level was my birthday this year, I am actually ashamed that I let myself get so carried away, I had so much to drink that my family would not let me drive my car home and I had spent the whole next day in bed. I realised that I don’t want to do that anymore, for the past +- 3 months I have completely cut those friends out of my life, and it was for many reasons, 1 because I just don’t have the money for a recurring weekend party at friends places and 2 because my mind-set has changed, my heart has changed, and as much as I LOVE my friends with all my Heart, they genuinely are the best friends one could ask for, they were there for me in some of the darkest times in my life and stood by me through thick and thin, in fact just this morning I got a call from 2 friends saying that I have fallen off the face of the earth and they feel like I am shutting them out, while this was not intentional… it happened, I have stayed away from them, when they invite me I just don’t feel like going, I don’t want to live that kind of life anymore, I am far more interested in learning more about the Lord, reading his word, building a stronger relationship with him.
While my friends will always be there, they just do not have the same beliefs as me and being around them is not as fun as it used to be anymore I don’t enjoy the things that I did before. This is just proof enough that the Lord has changed my heart and changed my mind, he is working with me as I type this, and with each passing day I feel closer to him, in one of my previous posts I mentioned that my favourite Author was Lesley Pearse, well 2 days ago I went and bought her latest book, and under normal circumstances this book would have been finished, if not I would have had maybe 1 or 2 chapters left, well the book is still in the same packet that I got it in when I bought it, because the first book I want to pick up and read is the Bible. Things are different for me now, I have God in my life, I want to spend all my time with him, and as much as I love my friends, spending time with God is far more enjoyable.
Out of all the scriptures I have read in my life this one remains the one at the top of my list, the one that I refer to in time of need, regardless of what I am going through or what I am feeling, this Scripture always brings me back to reality, what I mean by this is that previously in my life when I went through difficult times in my life I always let those situations get the better of me, but this scripture always had this way of humbling me in a way, here I think things are so bad and yet look at what was sacrificed for me… and for you.
Which brings me to my topic of generous giving, so many of us go about our lives and it’s all about us, what we have, how much money we make, how much we get from others, how what we do for others can benefit us… well that is not how it should be, at least I do not think so, have you ever stopped to think that if everyone that counted everything they have done for you in your life and asked for payment in return how much money would you owe everyone, well with me I think I would be repaying my debt until the day I die.
If you refer back to the scripture, how unselfish was it of God to offer up his son so that we my live, how much love did he not have for us to sacrifice that for us. I was brought up with the principle that if you give someone something you should not always expect something in return, you should give it with a good heart.
I used to be one of those people that would give someone something, hoping that someday I will get something back, why? Well because I did something good, so something good needs to come back to me, well the way I see it is if I am giving someone something and expecting something in return then that is not a good deed it is a business transaction, there is a big difference.
The past couple of weeks God’ has really opened my eyes to things I never noticed before, about a little boy who lost his father at a very young age and does not have a lot because his mom is looking after both of them on just one salary and not 2, my heart goes out to him, I was in that position, I too lost my father, I know what that feels like.
Then there are these 2 homeless children on the street, I see them every day when I go to work, and every day when I come home, I see them when I go to the shops, or when I got to church, I have never once stopped to think what they must be feeling, how hungry they must be, how much they just want a warm plate of food and maybe a hot bath.
There are so many people out there that cannot afford the things we take for granted, that just need a little help from someone, that just need someone to stretch out a helping hand and not expect anything back in return.
It is that time of year when we are all buying each other gifts and planning these great big Christmas lunches or dinners, let’s take a moment to reflect on those that will not be enjoying Christmas because they are on the streets, or because they don’t have enough money, let’s try and not think so much of ourselves and try to think more of others this festive season and give a little hope to those that don’t have any.
Ecclesiastes 5:10-15 — “Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. This too is meaningless. As goods increase, so do those who consume them. And what benefit are they to the owner except to feast his eyes on them? The sleep of a labourer is sweet, whether he eats little or much, but the abundance of a rich man permits him no sleep. I have seen a grievous evil under the sun: wealth hoarded to the harm of its owner, or wealth lost through some misfortune, so that when he has a son there is nothing left for him. Naked a man comes from his mother’s womb, and as he comes, so he departs. He takes nothing from his labour that he can carry in his hand.”
2 Corinthians 8:9 — “For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.”
2 Corinthians 9:10-11 — “Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.”
2 Corinthians 8:7, 13-14 — “But just as you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us—see that you also excel in this grace of giving. … Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality …”
I was not going to write a post today but after coming home from church I feel I must, a few days ago a friend or should I say a brother in Christ, wrote a very touching blog that brought me to tears, when you done reading this I recommend that you take a read, and follow him and I can guarantee you that you will be blessed beyond measure, God is working through him in his writing, I have read all of his blogs, and this one by far has been the most inspirational to me, it is called Pierced by your loving gaze, in this blog he speaks of God’s amazing love for all of us, he begins by saying that he used to be one of the guys that didn’t cry but its different for him now, he goes on to mention that he was listening to a song by Michael W Smith – Deep in love with you, after reading his blog, I sat and thought to myself that if this song had brought him to tears, that this song had brought a grown man to tears then it MUST be a powerful song, so I decided to go and get myself the CD.
I went to church this morning, it was a new church that is closer to home, I was reluctant to go as I felt as though my usual church was my home, and that I would not be happy in any other church but because my church is so far away, I decided I would try the church 5 minutes from my house as it is very much like my church.
Something amazing happened to me today, I can’t quite explain it except that God’s love is so amazing. I walked through the doors of this church, and I won’t tell you a word of a lie, when I put the first step inside the church I started to cry, I felt the most amazing sense of Love, like nothing I have ever experienced, just when I think God’s love cannot be any more amazing and never-ending I am engulfed with another wave of love even stronger than the last. All through the praise and worship I had tears in my eyes, I could not understand why I was crying, but the other day this same friend told me those times that I cry I must enjoy it, so I did. I cried with a smile on my face. J
After the service I went into the book shop and bought the CD that had this song on, I got in my car and put the CD on, I skipped to track 8 and I cried even more. It is indeed a very powerful song, but then while driving home I came across another song, one that I have heard before… Majesty
It goes something like this…
Singing Majesty…. Majesty…
Your grace has found me just I am, empty handed but alive in your hands
Singing Majesty, were singing Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love in the presence of your majesty….
When this song played I cried like a baby, just there and then I felt like NO ONE and NOTHING could compare to the Lord, NO ONE and NOTHING was as important as Jesus, I felt as though nothing else mattered, all the problems, all the pain, all the issues were gone, it was just me and God, he was there I felt him, the intensity of the love that I felt cannot be compared to any other form of love that any human can provide, it far surpasses everything and everyone in my life, the past few days, have been this unbelievable and amazing journey, I have felt the presence of God more and more each day, but today…. today is the day I felt truly BORN AGAIN, today was the day that I was transformed from being a broken down person to being a child of God, as it was intended to be.