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2011… was it the worst or best year of my life?


Well 2011 was a very difficult year for me, I wanted it to end, that clock could not have struck 12 any sooner than what it had, everyone was counting down for the new year to begin I was counting down for the old one to end, or so I thought.

Then I sat and thought about everything that has happened and thought that maybe JUST maybe 2011 was the best year yet.

I met some amazing people, had some good laughs, memories that I will cherish forever. I had to face a lot of hard truths about me and the path I was on. I lost a family member someone who I loved dearly; family secrets were revealed that shook me to the core. I had been through a rejection by someone I cared for dearly, but yet through all that today our relationship is stronger than ever and we have remained friends through it, in fact I am a stronger woman today because of him.

I suffered from severe depression, I didn’t want to live or SO I THOUGHT, but looking back at the past couple of months it was never a depression it was an emptiness something was missing in my life something that was meant to be there but just was not. Somewhere along my life Journey I lost Jesus, but 2011 was the year that I found him, the emptiness is Gone AND THAT WAS THE BEST PART OF 2011, what was missing in my life is now present, not only did I find Jesus I also found myself, the person that was buried under all the pain and heartache, the person that was consumed by her struggle.

I have made some amazing friends, some whom I have grown to depend on some who have been an inspiration.  So I would like to mention some friends and family here, just to say thank you for making my 2011 great.

Firstly to Gigi (you know who you are), the friend that convinced me to write about my feelings, the whole reason I started this blog, you have been a pillar of strength to me in so many ways even though you are so far away, the times we shared when we lived together and worked together I will cherish forever, the jokes we made the laughs we had are a part of y memory and can never be erased. I LOVE YOU FRIEND, DEARLY. I can’t wait for the day when I will get so see you again, I can like to think I will pee in my JEAN PANT hahahahah ok so friend I can’t get the accent through to you on this blog but I am sure you can picture me saying it and I bet you right now you are REALLY just about to pee in your jean pant with laughter.

Then I want to thank my mother for Just being there, and doing the best she could with what she had, I Love YOU.

To my brother for being my support system month after month even though you too are struggling.

To my sister for believing in me when others sometimes didn’t.

Ok so for the sake of anonymity once again thank you to Frikkie hee hee… I complain a lot I know, and you have been the one at work that has just sat there listening to me all day long, goodness knows how annoying I must be sometimes, thank you for being someone I could talk to about work, issues, and about God, thank you for being a key player in me finding the thing that was missing in my life. Thank you to Lourens, too for putting up with my constant BBM messages asking about things that I do not understand regarding Christianity or things that I just need clarity on, thank you both for being so transparent in your love for Jesus, it was that transparency that made me want more in my life. You both are such an inspiration to me Thank you.

Thank you to Michele, even though we have never met, in the past 2 months we have become close via this blog and been an inspiration to each other, I feel a real connection to you and that connection is Jesus, I see you as a sister in Christ. Who knows maybe one day I will get to meet my new friend.

To John, also one of my new blogging friends, both you and your blog have been an inspiration, for me and I look forward to reading your blog every time I see a new post, your testimony is one that can greatly help others that are now where you have already been in your life, it was through your blog that God gave me the confirmation that I needed to do what needs to be done.

When I started this blog I never thought for one moment that I would get to interact with so many people and it is amazing, this blog has been a huge healing process for me and I never thought I would ever say this but I have discovered a new passion, and that is this blog, writing these posts have been an unbelievable healing process for me.

So to all of you who have influenced my life THANK you I pray that 2012 will be an amazing year for all of you.

ABOVE ALL, thank you Lord for filling this gap in my life, and making me the strong Woman I am today, and it just keeps getting better.

Isaiah 43:18-19 – “Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

So in answering my posts title/question 2011 was by far the best year yet, bring on 2012 it can only get better.

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Hello Bloggers, well well well you clicked my post, that was pretty easy I’d say, now let’s see how many of you have read this post right to the end.

 

The title to today’s post was click here, it’s bound to make you curious, and it did that is why you are here not so?… now let’s say I changed the title of my blog to say click here for great freebies, would you have clicked?… I would have. What about if the title was click here to win a car??? Would you have clicked it…? I definitely would have no doubt.

But what if I changed the topic to, Jesus loves you… click here for more info? How many of you would have clicked on my post? Those numbers would have dropped I am sure… or what if I made the topic… Jesus would love for you to get to know Him better click here…. would you have clicked?? Again I am sure the numbers would drop.

 

Why is that? Is it because you do not believe in Jesus? Is it because you are too busy to know Jesus?? If that’s the case then why are you still here and why did you then click my post? Because surely if you too busy for Jesus then you too busy to read this post too?? (Don’t get me wrong I am GLAD you did) So here is the real topic of this post, and I pray that you will read to the end.

 

God Loves YOU, he wants to be a part of your life… Are you going to invite him in?

 

For many years I have been a believer in Jesus, but although I went to church and was involved that was about it, it was all on the surface but if you had to scratch a little deeper you would see I was a person that did the wrong things, the partying, drinking etc. I never really took God seriously. Up until recently that is.

 

Let’s take a look at scripture verses:

 

John 3:16–18:

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved [attain wholeness].

He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

 

God sent his son for us so that we could be saved I mean how awesome is that, those of you that are parents? How many of you can actually say that you would make that sacrifice? So what does that say about God? What does that say about the amazing love he has for each and every one of us?

 

1 Peter 5:7:

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7).

 

It is clear, he wants you to give him all your worries and burdens because he cares for you….

 

Ephesians 2:4-5: 

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.

 

Now contrary to what you might think, I am not one of those people who will try and force you to do something that you don’t want to do, I don’t want to force you to believe in Jesus, or force you to accept him as your Saviour, I merely want to tell you that you are missing out on the most AMAZING love ever.

 

You are missing out on Blessings; you are missing out on healing. You are missing out on a relationship with your creator.

 

Now let’s take a look at the life of Christopher Hitchens: (13 April 1949 – 15 December 2011) was a British-American author and journalist whose books, essays, and journalistic career spanned more than four decades (Taken from Wikipedia). Christopher Hitchens, was an atheist, he mocked God, he even went as far as writing a book called God is not Great. In fact his friend Rick Warren himself said on twitter and I quote “My friend Christopher Hitchens has died. I loved and prayed for him constantly & grieve his loss. He knows the Truth now”. This made me wonder where his final resting place is. We do not know for sure, who knows maybe all the praying that Rick Warren did for him planted the seed, and maybe in his last dying moments he asked God to forgive him and come into his life, we can never know, I pray that he did, or should I say I HOPE he did, because to pray for that now would be pointless.

 

Which now brings me to my next question…? If you wear to die right now, for whatever reason it doesn’t really matter I suppose, but if you died right now do you know where you would go? Heaven or hell? Or maybe you are like Christopher Hitchens, and you do not believe that God even exists, and that this post means absolutely nothing to you and that you think I am some Bible basher that knows nothing, would you not rather be safe than sorry. I would rather die having the assurance that I will go to heaven, and if I pass on and there is in fact no heaven or hell (which I doubt) then I have lost nothing, but if I died without accepting Jesus into my life and got to heaven and was told sorry you can’t come in your final accommodation is hell then I have lost everything.

 

I am just not prepared to take that chance, are you?

 

If you have not been accepted Jesus Christ into your life—let me invite you to surrender yourself to him now.

Romans 10:13

For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.

Give your life to God by accepting Jesus as your Saviour and Lord. Let me invite you to read the following as a prayer.

Dear God, I declare that I am a sinner. Please forgive my sins and accept me as your child. I invite you to be my Saviour and the Lord of my life. I surrender myself to you in the name of Jesus Christ, my Saviour and Lord.

Amen.

 

That was the first step, in order for you to really experience the love of God you really need to build that relationship with him, get to know him by reading the bible, praying and just fellowshipping with him, you might not hear him but he can hear you even when no words come out of your mouth, and slowly but surely he will reveal himself to you little by little.

 

If you are still reading this then I thank you, and I pray that a seed has been planted in your heart, that if you have not accepted Jesus that you will do so whether now or next week or next year that you will accept him.

 

That is the purpose of my blog, to win souls for Jesus.

 

May God Bless you.

Friendship


I read a blog this morning, called How’s Your Salvation Workin’ Out For Ya?, this blog is not at all related to my topic today but when I read this blog, I thought of friendships, out of all the bloggers I am following or those who are following me, I have had the pleasure to only meet one.  However, I follow these people because I found their blog, read it and found something that inspired me or got me thinking, that gave me inspiration for my next blog topic, that gave me answers, or that just made me draw just a little but closer to God with every post.

 

So although I have not met any of these people I consider them friends, because friends are there to inspire & encourage you.  So thank you to all those people whose blogs I have read that has made a difference in some way.

 

Proverbs 27: 9: Oil and perfume rejoice the heart; so does the sweetness of a friend’s counsel that comes from the heart.

 

Here are a few of the blogs I follow that I find to be truly inspiring maybe it will be the same for you…  Allowing Christ to change my life, Lions Lead, All things Beautiful, Tracee Persiko, Grace Partakers, these are a few that I find to be very inspirational, so go take a read it could inspire you too.

Depression …. how he can help.


Someone that suffers from depression will never really admit to it, as for most it seems like a sign of weakness, I was and still am one of those people, today for the first time I admitted to myself as well as 2 other people that I think/know that I suffer from depression, the severity of it I don’t know, what I do know is that I can’t remember long periods of my life when I was happy. My life has been this dull existence of the same routine every day, nothing changes, just the problems seem to get bigger with every passing day.

I sometimes wonder when will things get better, but they won’t not unless I DO SOMETHING about it and what I mean about doing something about it I mean trusting fully in the Lord, when I followed and served the Lord with all my heart, back when all I could think about was the next church service, church and GOD was my drug, it’s how I got high, I didn’t need pills and powders, all I needed was GOD.

That is how I know now that I have become lukewarm, the minute I start to stray from the Lord it feels like my world starts falling apart like nothing goes right.

God is the cure for anything, the payment for that cure was His blood, all you have to do is believe in Him and what he has planned for you, have a little faith in Him; He has so much planned for all of us so many blessings to bestow on our lives. If only we stopped believing in all the new age nonsense, like crystal healing, sangoma’s and what not, how is putting a crystal under your pillow at night supposed to help you, just the same as having one in your purse is going to bring more money, I used to believe in all that and look where it got me?? ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE……. (if you don’t know what a sangoma is it’s a witch doctor) or go google it.

GOD IS MY GP, He is my healer, my doctor, my hospital and my medication. No doctor or strong anti-depressant will help me, I have been there done that, granted the anti-depressant are good so good in fact that I ended up feeling no emotion at all, I could have seen a child been knocked over by a bus and I would have felt NOTHING!!! Who wants to live like that? I don’t. I lost a lot of people I cared about because of that a lot of friends broke all contact with me because they thought I did not give a damn, I even lost my Job.

I will now put all my trust and faith in Him, and I know it will work I know it will get better. All I have to do is practice Faith.

If anyone reads this post and you are not sure about whether you have depression or not … well let me just give you my symptoms and you can make your own decisions

  • Tired all the time – spend most of my free time in bed.
  • Irritated and annoyed
  • Appetite changes
  • The feeling of inadequacy  or not being good enough, being a failure
  • Just plain sadness or the blues, not wanting to do things you previously enjoyed
  • Becoming antisocial and avoiding contact or interaction with others unless you have to

There are more, but if you think you have it you have many options, you can leave it and hope that it goes away, you can go see a doctor, or you can believe in GOD… one option I would recommend to do is to speak to someone you trust, it is nothing to be ashamed of and you don’t need to do it alone that’s why you have friends who can be a shoulder to cry on or just to offer support or guidance, and you never know you might see that you are not the only one that feels the way you do and you are in fact not going crazy.

Here are some scriptures that can help you:

Proverbs 12:25: Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down, but a good word cheers it up.

2 Samuel 22:17-22 – He sent from above, he took me; he drew me out of many waters; (18) He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them that hated me: for they were too strong for me. (19) They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay. (20) He brought me forth also into a large place: he delivered me, because he delighted in me. (21) The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness: according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me. (22) For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.

2 Samuel 22:29 – You are my lamp O Lord; the Lord turns my darkness into light.

Ecclesiastes 9:4– Anyone who is among the living has hope.

Psalms 9:9 – The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Psalm 27:14 –  Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Psalm 31:22,24 – You heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help… Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.

Psalm 34:18,  19 – The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (19) A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.