As most of you know, to be a true child of God, that satan’s attacks will become more frequent and stronger by the day, and in order for us to be protected from that we need to study his word and equip ourselves with the Armour of God.
Ok so I have read any books on people that have given their lives to the Lord, and have written about their experiences, and how they suffered many attacks from the devil. To be very honest, I read those books being a bit wary on the validity as I was still a very young Christian and my Journey with the Lord had only just begun.
I started blogging approximately a month ago, and with every post I feel l have learnt so much about the Lord and so much about myself that I am in fact much stronger than I think. Over the past couple of weeks, I have had this growing desire to go out and tell people about the Lord, something that I found previously very difficult to do. I have also felt this overwhelming sense of Love in my life, no Love I have ever experienced has quite matched the Love I have been feeling, so much so that it is just way too much Love for me to handle and therefore the desire to get it out there so that others can also experience this Love that I am currently feeling.
However along with this amazing Love that I feel, I have had this growing feeling of being attacked. Although nothing specific had happened I felt like I was under attack and it bothered me. I could not quite put my finger on why I felt this way; the one good thing about all of this was that the feeling of being loved so much overpowered the feeling of being attacked.
Something happened to me last night, and while most people might see this as pure coincidence, but deep down I feel like it was an attack. Why I say that? Well let me explain, I feel that with EVERY passing day my relationship with the Lord is getting stronger and stronger. In fact yesterday I woke up and felt like my whole life had changed I felt something that I had never experienced before and that was that Jesus was there he is living in me and through me. This is WHY I felt like what happened last night was an attack and not mere coincidence. So let me tell you what happened and you can tell me what you think.
As mentioned before I have felt this feeling of being attacked for a few days now, but yesterday I felt slightly uneasy when I left to go home, that feeling of uneasiness though was clouded with the fact a colleague whom I consider to be a very good friend had decided to bless me with a new Bible, I was absolutely floored when he gave it to me. So that uneasy feeling went away for a short while. Anyway I was on my way home and the lady in the lane next to me had suddenly swerved out in front of me, if I had not swerved out of the way there would have been an accident, and although it would not have been a very serious one I would have been hurt, about I had gone to fetch my mother and we were on our way to my brother for dinner, and it was approximately 20 minutes after this that the next thing had happened, this time it was from the other side this car had decided to come into the lane that I was in, I was practically right next to him so there is no way he did not see me once again I had to swerve out of the way, had I not done that we would have been in an accident and would have been hurt, also here I do not think we would have been badly hurt, but hurt nonetheless. Then while at my brother I decided to go to the shop, on the way back I saw a car that was quite a distance away so I never thought anything of it because it was far, within seconds this car was approaching me from behind I do not know how fast he was driving but it was clear that he was not slowing down, I swerved into the other lane to get out of the way, as I swerved my car out of the way this man had sped past, had I not looked in my rear view mirror he would have hit me and at the speed he was going someone would have died I just know that, there is no way that there could be a collision at that speed and no one gets hurt.
Unfortunately I suffer from road rage, which is something I am slowly but surely learning how to deal with, however when he had sped past me and I realised that we could all have been dead had I not moved out of the way angered me, I chased after him, but when he skipped a red robot and almost caused another accident I decided to drop it as I had just stooped to his level and had put my life as well as the lives of my passengers and other drivers on the road at risk. I felt such a strong sense of uneasiness, and I really felt that I was under attack. I now have this feeling of someone watching me and saying I didn’t get you last night but I will get you, and at the same time I am not scared when normally I would have been, I am not scared because I have the protection of God, and it says in the bible that no weapons formed against me will prosper
Isaiah 54:17: “No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; And every tongue that accuses you in judgment you will condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their vindication is from Me,” declares the LORD.
So satan, ONCE AGAIN… you can try and attack me as much as you like but your best just AINT GOOD ENOUGH… so why waste your time
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of His might. 11 Put on the full armour of God, that you may be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore, take up the full armour of God, that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.
14 Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming missiles of the evil one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints, 19 and pray on my behalf, that utterance may be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in proclaiming it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.
I would love some feedback on this from anyone who reads it as this is something I need to learn how to deal with.
Well well well…. you certainly are a persistent little bugger aren’t you, you are right there waiting for me to fall waiting for me to give into my weaknesses, waiting just waiting… not so patiently might I add. Today I feel the pressure more than most, nothing in particular has happened that makes today worse than the others, in fact I do not know why today is so hard, but it is. I am sure that makes you happy too, so happy because soon you will succeed, you will be victorious over me … THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK.
Yes today is hard, VERY HARD, I have so many things going through my mind, how I am going to pay all my bills at the end of the month, how I am going to manage to get to work every day, how the problems seem to just be getting bigger. Right now I feel like screaming as it seems there is no way out, I AM ONLY HUMAN after all.
Let me just tell you one thing, you can wait and wait and wait, because this time around I REFUSE to let go of the Lord, I refuse to forget HIS promise and his LOVE, I am nothing without HIM. My life would be senseless, I knew it would not be easy; in fact the attacks from you would increase and just get worse. On my own I would have fallen, I am so grateful that I am NOT ON MY OWN. That one fact must annoy you to no end. Well guess what that will not change, I will have the Lord by my side ALL THE TIME, I know your attacks will not stop, I would be fooling myself if I thought for one single minute that would happen. I am just GLAD, GLAD that I am not alone, YES SATAN, I am holding God’s hand every step of the way.
So here is my message to you… BACK OFF AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE, GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM, TO YOUR WORLD OF EVIL, JUST DON’T EXPECT ME TO COME WITH YOU THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN SO GIVE UP ON ME BECAUSE YOU ARE WASTING YOUR TIME. WHILE YOU AT IT GET YOUR CLAWS OUT OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND ALL THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT, BECAUSE WITH GOD ON OUR SIDE WE WILL BEAT YOU…. GO AHEAD… GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT. JUST REMEMBER YOUR BEST SHOT IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
The God of my rock; in him will I trust: he is my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower, and my refuge, my saviour; thou saved me from violence. I will call on the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. 2 Samuel 22:3-4
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me. Psalm 138:7