2011… was it the worst or best year of my life?

Well 2011 was a very difficult year for me, I wanted it to end, that clock could not have struck 12 any sooner than what it had, everyone was counting down for the new year to begin I was counting down for the old one to end, or so I thought.

Then I sat and thought about everything that has happened and thought that maybe JUST maybe 2011 was the best year yet.

I met some amazing people, had some good laughs, memories that I will cherish forever. I had to face a lot of hard truths about me and the path I was on. I lost a family member someone who I loved dearly; family secrets were revealed that shook me to the core. I had been through a rejection by someone I cared for dearly, but yet through all that today our relationship is stronger than ever and we have remained friends through it, in fact I am a stronger woman today because of him.

I suffered from severe depression, I didn’t want to live or SO I THOUGHT, but looking back at the past couple of months it was never a depression it was an emptiness something was missing in my life something that was meant to be there but just was not. Somewhere along my life Journey I lost Jesus, but 2011 was the year that I found him, the emptiness is Gone AND THAT WAS THE BEST PART OF 2011, what was missing in my life is now present, not only did I find Jesus I also found myself, the person that was buried under all the pain and heartache, the person that was consumed by her struggle.

I have made some amazing friends, some whom I have grown to depend on some who have been an inspiration.  So I would like to mention some friends and family here, just to say thank you for making my 2011 great.

Firstly to Gigi (you know who you are), the friend that convinced me to write about my feelings, the whole reason I started this blog, you have been a pillar of strength to me in so many ways even though you are so far away, the times we shared when we lived together and worked together I will cherish forever, the jokes we made the laughs we had are a part of y memory and can never be erased. I LOVE YOU FRIEND, DEARLY. I can’t wait for the day when I will get so see you again, I can like to think I will pee in my JEAN PANT hahahahah ok so friend I can’t get the accent through to you on this blog but I am sure you can picture me saying it and I bet you right now you are REALLY just about to pee in your jean pant with laughter.

Then I want to thank my mother for Just being there, and doing the best she could with what she had, I Love YOU.

To my brother for being my support system month after month even though you too are struggling.

To my sister for believing in me when others sometimes didn’t.

Ok so for the sake of anonymity once again thank you to Frikkie hee hee… I complain a lot I know, and you have been the one at work that has just sat there listening to me all day long, goodness knows how annoying I must be sometimes, thank you for being someone I could talk to about work, issues, and about God, thank you for being a key player in me finding the thing that was missing in my life. Thank you to Lourens, too for putting up with my constant BBM messages asking about things that I do not understand regarding Christianity or things that I just need clarity on, thank you both for being so transparent in your love for Jesus, it was that transparency that made me want more in my life. You both are such an inspiration to me Thank you.

Thank you to Michele, even though we have never met, in the past 2 months we have become close via this blog and been an inspiration to each other, I feel a real connection to you and that connection is Jesus, I see you as a sister in Christ. Who knows maybe one day I will get to meet my new friend.

To John, also one of my new blogging friends, both you and your blog have been an inspiration, for me and I look forward to reading your blog every time I see a new post, your testimony is one that can greatly help others that are now where you have already been in your life, it was through your blog that God gave me the confirmation that I needed to do what needs to be done.

When I started this blog I never thought for one moment that I would get to interact with so many people and it is amazing, this blog has been a huge healing process for me and I never thought I would ever say this but I have discovered a new passion, and that is this blog, writing these posts have been an unbelievable healing process for me.

So to all of you who have influenced my life THANK you I pray that 2012 will be an amazing year for all of you.

ABOVE ALL, thank you Lord for filling this gap in my life, and making me the strong Woman I am today, and it just keeps getting better.

Isaiah 43:18-19 – “Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

So in answering my posts title/question 2011 was by far the best year yet, bring on 2012 it can only get better.

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Posted on January 1, 2012, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. theWomanAtTheWell

    It’s as if this could have been a re-blog …your story sounds so familiar as if it could be my own, but I’m sure you get that a lot in this broken world, I just want to take the time to thank you for reaching out to me and sayin hello..I too never thought I’d find what I have from blogging..It has been truly amazing. and Thank you as well for your posts that have been confirmation and encouragement and a source of hope to me. God bless for letting the old go and embracing this newness to come.-watw

    • Hello,

      thank you for your comment, I havent yet had sommeone tell me that my story was similar to theirs, but I am sure there are many with similar stories and even worse. I know exactly what you mean about the blogging I NEVER thought it would become so important to me, and yet it has become a important element in my healing process. I am glad that my posts have given you encouragement and confirmation, it is amazing to know that, your posts are an encouragement to me too.

      I cant wait to continue this Journey it CAN only get better

      God Bless

  2. You are so sweet! Thank you! I was very touched that you mentioned me!! I too am very fond of our new friendship and you are in my thoughts all the time. I even mentioned you to my grandmother. She’s all afraid I’m going to take a trip to South Africa. haha She’s 88, so God bless her. I would love to meet you too one day and you never know. God works amazing things in my life so nothing is out of the question. I’m so happy to hear you found your stength this year. You certainly have conquered alot in your life. I know what depression is like and not wanting to wake up the next day. It’s a horrible feeling. I can relate to this totally. This year is going to be a great year for both of us and we both have found a new strength in the Lord and He has so many good plans for us. Thanks again, and many blessings to you my friend. You are such an encouragement to me and you are in my prayers daily. 🙂

    • Hee Hee,

      how cute is your Grandmother lol, yip you are so right you never know, God does amazing things. Well as I said in my post 2011 was in fact the best and not the worst year for me so many good things have happened.

      Thank you for keeping me in your prayers you are in mine too.

      God Bless

  3. 😀 It is such a wonderful thing to hear that you have overcome depression.
    The Lord has been working in me as well to conquer depression, doubt, and bitterness. Let the Lord continue to lift us up and make us wonders of goodness in the lives of our brethren. Be ever ever blessed, our Savior lives

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