God … Take my hand

All though my life even previously when I had given my life to the Lord, I have not trusted in Him fully to guide me and show me the way, the past few months have been a real eye opener for me.

I HAVE to hold God’s hand in everything I do. Without Him by my side I am nothing. The past few weeks have been somewhat strange, the only thing keeping me sane is God and me writing about it. If someone had told me 2 months ago that writing would be a release for me I would have laughed in their faces, every time I feel down or just not myself I used to turn to music, I would lock myself in the room and just turn on the radio.

It’s different now, when I feel something or the lack of feeling I want to write about it. To be able to express what I am feeling in writing is somewhat therapeutic. It helps me analyse, things and look at what areas of my life need to be worked on.

For the past couple of weeks if not months I have been suffering with insomnia, so much so that I have become moody, and withdrawn.  So the time I spend awake I try to focus on the Lord and not the hundreds of problems and issues that need my attention during the day. If I am honest with myself I am not doing everything I can to strengthen my relationship with the Lord.

All I know is that I feel this strong desire in my life, a desire to do more. I cannot do it without God, I need him to take my hand and guide me, I cannot do it alone. I so badly want to do more but I don’t know what, yes I have brought up the calling of God in one of my previous posts, and the thought of being able to do more for the Lord makes me so excited, but the thought of not knowing makes me cry. I know I need to be patient in God’s timing, so for now I just have to seek Him and trust that He will reveal to me soon enough what He wants me to do.

I know I need to spend more quiet time with the Lord, for me it’s not easy. I am always surrounded by people. At this point in my life I just want to be ALONE! I don’t want to be around any people not even friends and family.  I want to be able to open my Bible and be able to just read it and take in His Word, with no interruptions.

I know for most people to have quite time alone is also not easy, so if there is anyone that reads this and you are in the same situation, HOW and WHERE do you spend time with the Lord. I almost feel like I am suffering from withdrawal symptoms, God has put a strong desire in my heart to fellowship with Him, and I am I just feel that it is not enough I want to DO MORE, want to serve HIM MORE.



Posted on November 18, 2011, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.

  1. As I write this I have a 35 lb. dog on my lap, so bear with me.(ugh)…I too want to do more and the Lord speaks to me about this daily. I actually have too much alone time and find that I’m so use to it that it takes a conscious effort just to leave the house. I’m an insomniac as well. It’s very draining. Wanting to do more for God is always a good thing, but I think if it’s causing discomfort and frustration, that could be an attack from the devil. Follow what you have peace about. Peace comes from God. You’re not alone. Keep writing. You’ll be a source of strength for me!

  2. HI There,

    Thank you for your comment, I am not sure whether to see it as an attack from the devil or a desire that the Lord has put in my heart, the insomnia as well I am not quite sure what to make of it. someone once told me that if you wake up in the middle of the night it is the Lord trying to speak to you, if that is the case I am just struggling to hear him.

    I just need to pray and take it one day at a time, and have faith not only in God but also in his timing.

  3. Rest easy, my friend, I know God is holding your hand. He never lets go…ever.

  4. The title of your post made me think of the song, “Precious Lord hold My hand.” It’s a great one.

    • I have never heard it, who sings it?

      • It’s an old time hymn with deep meaning words. We sing it where I worship. I tried to reply with a link but it wouldn’t let me so all I can say is go to youtube and search for “Precious Lord Take My Hand and acapella.”

        You should get something that will get the point across. Take care.

  5. Click this link http://mbriley.preachersfiles.com/acapella-gospel-singing/ and then scroll down to the second group and look the song “Precious Lord Take My Hand.” The songs are in alphabetical order so it will be easy to find.

    Don’t know the writer off hand but it’s an old hymn with deep meaning.

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